
Since signing with my manager earlier this year, our back-and-forth emails had somewhat dwindled. It seemed to be taking longer to hear back, and even those brief messages were less than encouraging.
Despite working on the new spec scripts, this, combined with my overactive imagination and requisite writer’s self-doubt, made me convinced that nobody was interested in the script.
And I mean nobody.
*Side note – want to feel even worse about yourself? Seek the opinions of those on a public forum. I think I’m truly done with that.
I needed to do something, which turned out to be sending my manager an email asking if he was available to talk.
Best thing I could have done.
I explained to him how I was feeling frustrated about not knowing what was going on, and asked if there was anything I else I could do to help move things along (apart from keep writing).
He totally understood, apologized for being incommunicado, and gave me the update – who the script had been sent to, including several studios and production companies. One studio had passed, another was still reading it, and somebody at a prodco really liked it and wanted to see what else I had.
We also discussed getting the new specs to him, the potential of one of them with a well-known production company and how he was adding a staffer who’d be more in the middle of all the action.
This ten-minute conversation was able to wash away all my self-doubt, inadequacy and just plain lousyness.
It’s hard enough to get representation, but once you do, it’s not all up to them. These people are busy, so it’s easy for you to fall off their radar. You have to be the one to remind them you’re still there. Don’t be afraid to ask “can we talk?”.
If you have questions or concerns, ask them. As I mentioned, it’s all too easy to let your imagination run wild and start generating counterproductive thoughts. The occasional update chat is the best way to stay positive and keep yourself focused.
phew. what a relief that must have been. Hoping all is well.
Yep. Very much so. Thanks.
ah! Glad you got that sorted! I totally feel for you – for me, not even looked or gone to the representation stage but when I finish a draft, I go through this whole stage of ‘I WOULD LOVE SOMEONE TO READ because the feeling is THAT awesome!!!’ even though you know or think it’s not quite there – which is the frustrating part. Writing is like that: the huge HIGH you get when it’s finished followed by the millions of doubts and mixed emotions after – will people like it? Did I write it like it was in my head or am I just a crappy writer?
Everybody feels that way, especially in the beginning. But as your skills develop, your confidence grows. You’ll still worry if people will like it, but definitely not as much. Besides, you’ll be too focused on your next project to really worry that much.
Hi, sorry it took me a while to reply but yes, that’s good comfort there – I do get a little bonkers worrying about people’s opinions but like you pointed out so well, focusing on the other projects (which I have enough of) do help immensely.