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The rewrite’s done, and all of a sudden, I’m nervous. Like, ridiculously so.
I’ve sent scripts out before, but this time something is making it a lot different.
A fear of failure. Of rejection.
What if nobody likes it?
What writer hasn’t gone through this?
But as I tell K every once in a while – the only way I could fail is if I stopped trying, and I don’t plan on doing that either.
It may be that after all this time, the idea of possibly being that much closer to actually achieving my goal is kind of overwhelming. This is where that internal voice kicks in.
Do I have what it takes? Is the script just about ready to be sent out?
Damn straight. I’ve got a lot of confidence in this script and my writing ability.
I can and will do what it takes to make this work.
4 thoughts on “The Sinestro Effect -OR- Seeking my inner Hal Jordan”
Congrats on finishing! The insecurity never goes away. Every writer I know, both pro and amateur, experiences it regularly. Definitely can’t let it get you down! Knock ’em dead.
That’s the plan. Never really thought about pros having the same insecurities, but I guess it’s just part of the job, albeit on a different level.
A huge congrats on finishing the script. That’s the achievement. Your vision, your style and it’s exactly the way you want it to be. I have two TV pilots out to a huge producer at this moment (actually sent on Friday) and my toes are tapping. What will be will be and come what may. I know the projects are good. In fact the best writing I’ve done to date. The feedback over the past month from top development heads and production partners has been awesome. You always have self doubt, but I believe you really know in your writer’s soul if what you’ve created is good or not. The next step is finding a producer who also believes in it as much as you do. How great was that feeling when you typed FADE OUT. THE END? A high only us writers can know and it’s hard because we feel so alone at that moment—how do you share it with someone who wasn’t there slogging over those blank pages? Good job!
Thanks for the words of encouragement! I think that’s where a lot of the fear comes from – I’m really excited about this script, and have my fingers crossed to the point of cramping that others will feel as positive about it. It may also be that I know my writing has definitely improved since I started, and getting positive feedback from an impartial party would be a kind of validation (i.e. makes all that work oh-so-worth it).