There I was, laptop sitting exactly there.  That ominous screen staring back at me.

Somewhere in my mind is the answer I’ve been trying to force out, which is never a good idea.  It has to be coaxed, gently, like a riled bear.  Never mind that I’ve never actually coaxed a riled bear, but you get the idea.

I needed something to wrap up the story, bring it closure, if you will. The past few weeks had shown a remarakable inability to do that.

But the past few says had been somewhat productive, so maybe I could keep the streak alive.  I started today’s writing with the intent of trying to get something done.  I looked over a few scenes.  Somwhere in there was what I was looking for.

I went to that second-to-last line in the whole outline – HOW DOES IT END?  I needed something.  Anything.

So I type.  Nothing big, but I write in my usual way of how I want it to work.  It may not make sense to somebody else, but I know what I’m trying to say.

And more words come.  Then more.

Then an idea.  Something I hadn’t thought of before.  That leads to another idea.  What if I tried this?  Hey, that could work.  I scan some of the relevant scenes.  The idea could be plugged in, AND it helps develop the character.

Hey.  Another idea, which could REALLY wrap it all up.  I type out a rough draft of the scene.  Maybe a montage before it?  Well, maybe, but that last one is a keeper.

I look it over.  This is the complete opposite of what I was looking for, at least what I thought I wanted, but it’s simple, effective and wraps up a good number of storylines.

I read it again.  It’ll probably need some developing, but at first glance, it works.  It really works.

I’m also reminded once again of how something I wrote weeks or months ago can provide the answer I need, even though I’m not even thinking about it in those particular terms.

I really like when that happens.  It’s cool.

And the rewrite begins once again…

I typed up the changes from yesterday to the outline and it’s really coming together, but an idea struck me as part of the ongoing battle with the final scene, and implementing that could change a lot of the storylines, or at least several.

I don’t like having to go back and rewrite to that extent, but if I don’t, it will keep nagging at me.  I also have to remind myself that this happens a lot with actual screenwriters.  I’ll tinker around with it and see what happens.  If it goes that way, so be it.

I worry that when this thing is finally done and written, nobody will be interested in it.  It’s not exactly a romcom, but it’s not a drama either.  Maybe more dramedy than anything.

I’m also concerned people will be expecting certain things because it has elements of a certain genre, but I hate when things are predictable that you can see coming a mile away.  But when you try to present something different, you get a look of “huh?” or “it’s not what we’re looking for” or some drivel like that.

During my mental stopgap earlier today, I was thinking about films like MADE OF HONOR and GHOSTS OF GIRLFRIENDS PAST.  I remember reading about these scripts when they sold, and thinking the concepts were clever.  But without even having seen them, and also taking into account the box office, it’s not hard to see the fingerprints of studio execs and other assorted busybodies all over them.

These scripts were probably really great to begin with, and then dumbed down to appease the masses, which destroys the originality and uniqueness, and then the studios lose interest in scripts like them, or at least others with similar originality.

It’s very frustrating, but like every other schmuck with a headful of ideas, I will keep at it until something happens.  Which I really hope is soon.  It would make my heart soar and my head swell to see my name onscreen.  And then I can rub it in the faces of those I severely dislike.

Oh, like you wouldn’t do the same thing.

I liked what I did today with the outline.  It’s getting a little more together, as it were.  I’ll see what I can do tomorrow.  Hopefully that final scene will fall into place, which would be nice.

Still no word from Manager Guy.  I’m seriously considering contacting him tomorrow to see if there are any developments.  Please, please, please!

I’m also going to look into contacting Agent Lady, just to see what happens.

I wrote not a whit this weekend, but that usually happens on the weekends.  And it’s okay.

Kind of cool was that today was the 98th running of Bay to Breakers, a fun 12K from one end of San Francisco to the other. It was really hot, but I did it.  without stopping.  Estimated time – 1:14 or so.  I won’t know until tomorrow or Tuesday.  As I said to several people later in the day, the late-middle-aged naked people had the right idea.

I enjoy the running and hope to do a few more races for the rest of the year, which right now is a wait and see type of thing.

I haven’t heard from Manager Guy, who is supposed to get results from Studio 1 and Studio 2.  I hope that changes this week.  I’m also hoping to get further along with the outline.  And just to top it all off, I’d like a big sack of money to fall from the sky.

I didn’t get to write today, but I did get a lot of other stuff done.  It would be nice to have designated write time, but somedays it just ain’t gonna happen.

Even if it’s just scribbling down some notes, I’ll do what I can.  Weekends are always hard.